Welcome back!
I want to give you a quick update before I go into the main subject of my blog tonight.
I've been out for a run tonight and completed 3.25 miles in 45 mins 47 seconds. I purposefully took it easy tonight as I want to build my pace back up again properly so i can get into a race pace for the day and be comfortable with it. I'm still run/walk but I'm able to run consistently for a lot longer now. I ran the fist 1/4 mile at a very steady pace and I'm building on that. Very happy with it too.
I enjoyed it tonight, I bought a new running vest to make myself more comfortable in the heat and drove along to the coast to make it a little easier for me and my hay fever. I suffer from it quite badly and have taken my inhaler more in two weeks than I have in the last two years!! It isn't making running easy and the standard I was up to a month ago has disappeared in the pollen count! I'm working on it!
The subject for my blog tonight is to share with you the reasons I have chosen to run in aid of Mind.
A very dear friend of mine suffers from Depression and has been very kind to share with us a bit of background and her experiences. May I introduce to you Kelly Brownell, she is an exceptionally talented singer/songwriter based in County Durham, I hope you take the time to read her story.
"Where do I begin? At the start I suppose. As a child I always had mood swings which, as I have got older have increased in severity. I remember often feeling a complete loss of control even as a young child.
Looking back over my school years, I can see the patterns of depression, though at the time I did not know that was what it was. Though it was not that long ago - I left school in 1998 - there was little to no help for children and young people suffering from depression / social anxiety. Thankfully things are improving dramatically.
At 17 I had my first panic attack. I didn't know what was happening. I couldn't breath, I thought I was having a heart attack. My whole body was shaking and I lost the feeling in my legs.
My mum took me to A&E where I was told by a rather ignorant nurse that I was just hyperventilating and to go home, take paracetamol and go to sleep.
A trip to the doctors the next day told me that what I had experienced was a panic attack, though no help was offered.
A year later I had a breakdown while at university. I dropped out of uni, got into lots if debt buying things to try and make myself feel better and eventually ended up staying in bed for weeks at a time. At which point because I wasn't earning money I had to move back home.
It wasn't until the age of 25, that I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety and was offered medication. Things started to improve from there. I have got a good job and the company is very supportive of my mental health. They paid for me to go to a private clinic and receive CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) which I found amazing for my anxiety. Since having CBT I have rarely had a full blown panic attack.
My mental health continues to fluctuate as it always will. I had a lot of difficulty trying to find the correct medication for me. I think I have found one that works, which is a big help.
To get up to date, I am now 30 years old and I am still struggling. One of the worst things for someone with mental illness is isolation. A lot of people do not wish to discuss it because of the stigma attached, however, not talking is how we lose good people, as I lost one of my dear friends last year. I am a strong believer that we should be talking and that we need to end the stigma attached to mental illness. Most of all, we need to make people aware of the difference a simple text message can make to someone who has such inner torment.
I am currently due to begin treatment with a psychiatrist known as CAT (cognitive analytical therapy) I am hopeful that this will help.
I am very proud that Chrissy has chosen Mind as her charity for the GNR. We need to raise awareness and charities like Mind do such good work and save lives.
Good luck Chrissy xxxxx"
Thank you so much for your kind words Kelly, I really hope the CAT makes a difference for you.
If you would like to hear some of Kelly's music you can through the following links:
Kelly Brownell Music
Kelly's YouTube Video
Please sponsor me for the Great North Run; you can do so by clicking on Mind Charity
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Thanks for reading!
Just keep running, just keep running!
Chrissy
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